26 | November | 2008 | godfatherofgreenbay's Xanga Site

I have been somewhat ill the past two days. Yesterday I came around Xanga and made a few comments and then when I went to write I just said no and went to bed. I tossed and turned and suffered extreme pain and nausea. I felt like I was back in college after a night of binge drinking when I would hit the hay and the room would spin. I got up a few times and each time I was covered in a horrible sweat. I finally fell into deep sleep, must have been around 6 because it was getting light out. I woke up at 8 and was scared because I could see absolutely nothing. In my two hours of sleep I somehow managed to take my t-shirt off but not all the way and it was still around my neck but the body was covering my face. I got up and moved around. My parents called and asked if I wanted to go with them to La Crosse for a visit my dad was paying to a specialist. I passed because I felt so ill.
My day progressed. I got some work done and did some writing. I got some materials for something I am currently working on so I thought the day was going great until lunch time. Nothing I had in my cupboards or refrigerator looked appetizing. I then looked at my cereal. Lucky Charms is such a great food. Why not? It's lucky, right? I went out and did some errands and then went and talked with a pastor about some things that have been on my mind. Also told him where a file was located for my funeral in case of my death. So if I die you will have a pastor inform you. I was sitting at home enjoying some Sportscenter when my phone rings. My mom tells me that my dad has been admitted into the hospital because his kidneys are working poorly. She said I may have to come to the hospital tomorrow, just in case. I started getting queasy. I told her I'm not donating a kidney. I have my reasons. I think I am also disqualified because I have kidney problems. She said that they wouldn't be making any decisions like that but I should be there for moral support because they are doing a biopsy on his kidneys tomorrow. Oh and he may not be home for Thanksgiving. Hospital food is depressing. Well that made my evening. Actually that wasn't the worst that happened. I was just out of it and then I started feeling a burning and ripping sensation in my stomach.
I took my newspaper to the reading room and sat there for what seemed like 10 seconds. With all my problems I have to have a look before I flush. Well what I saw made me faint and bust my head on the bathroom door. Blood and lots of it. I was in tears. I quick flushed and cleaned myself up. I thought I was bleeding but it was just sweat. I sweat when I faint. It has happened a few times.
I figure tomorrow I will go to the doctor after seeing my dad. What is the point? I mean I have seen some of the finest doctors in the state and have had some of the most cutting edge tests performed on me. Maybe I donate my body to science now and that way I can speed things up. I voted for Obama because I need change, change in the medical field that can't diagnose me. Fuck. Here's some photos.