November 26, 2008
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Motivation
I have been somewhat ill the past two days. Yesterday I came around Xanga and made a few comments and then when I went to write I just said no and went to bed. I tossed and turned and suffered extreme pain and nausea. I felt like I was back in college after a night of binge drinking when I would hit the hay and the room would spin. I got up a few times and each time I was covered in a horrible sweat. I finally fell into deep sleep, must have been around 6 because it was getting light out. I woke up at 8 and was scared because I could see absolutely nothing. In my two hours of sleep I somehow managed to take my t-shirt off but not all the way and it was still around my neck but the body was covering my face. I got up and moved around. My parents called and asked if I wanted to go with them to La Crosse for a visit my dad was paying to a specialist. I passed because I felt so ill.
My day progressed. I got some work done and did some writing. I got some materials for something I am currently working on so I thought the day was going great until lunch time. Nothing I had in my cupboards or refrigerator looked appetizing. I then looked at my cereal. Lucky Charms is such a great food. Why not? It's lucky, right? I went out and did some errands and then went and talked with a pastor about some things that have been on my mind. Also told him where a file was located for my funeral in case of my death. So if I die you will have a pastor inform you. I was sitting at home enjoying some Sportscenter when my phone rings. My mom tells me that my dad has been admitted into the hospital because his kidneys are working poorly. She said I may have to come to the hospital tomorrow, just in case. I started getting queasy. I told her I'm not donating a kidney. I have my reasons. I think I am also disqualified because I have kidney problems. She said that they wouldn't be making any decisions like that but I should be there for moral support because they are doing a biopsy on his kidneys tomorrow. Oh and he may not be home for Thanksgiving. Hospital food is depressing. Well that made my evening. Actually that wasn't the worst that happened. I was just out of it and then I started feeling a burning and ripping sensation in my stomach.
I took my newspaper to the reading room and sat there for what seemed like 10 seconds. With all my problems I have to have a look before I flush. Well what I saw made me faint and bust my head on the bathroom door. Blood and lots of it. I was in tears. I quick flushed and cleaned myself up. I thought I was bleeding but it was just sweat. I sweat when I faint. It has happened a few times.
I figure tomorrow I will go to the doctor after seeing my dad. What is the point? I mean I have seen some of the finest doctors in the state and have had some of the most cutting edge tests performed on me. Maybe I donate my body to science now and that way I can speed things up. I voted for Obama because I need change, change in the medical field that can't diagnose me. Fuck. Here's some photos.
Oh forgot to say, I got to watch The Shield finale. Nothing could stop that. What did you think?
I don't know what tomorrow may bring.
Comments (18)
Wow, I hope you've got nothing serious! Get well soon!
Ok, that wedgies one gives me ideas for the next drunken outing...
Hope you fell better... and yes that WKRP episode is a classic.
PS if you didn't know that "Rad" kid came from Nintendo Power magazine in the mid eighties. The poor guy is probably 40 now and still trying to live that picture down.
I'm praying for you, I hope you and your dad will be okay.
Boy have you had a tough week. I hope you're ok, and I hope your dad is too. I'm thinking about you. . .
That somehow comforts me, that I will be told if you're dead. Hehehe. I am much interested, what is your zodiac sign??
lololz!
@nattata -
Thank you. Today was an interesting day. I may have to write about it tomorrow instead of eating or football.
@SladeTheGreyFox -
The wedgie one makes me miss college because I remember some experiences that were quite similar.
@Curse_of_Greyface -
I am trying to find that WKRP episode. I caught it on WGN the other night and they made mention of that episode and at the mere mention I burst out laughing.
I loved Nintendo Power. I still remember they had the centerfolds that featured game artwork. Sort of like porn for prepubescent gamers.
@spicyhotcoffee -
Thank you. Apparently they are letting him out sometime on thanksgiving but then comes the waiting for the biopsy.
@jacksoncroons -
Thanks, life seems to go in cycles for me and the last long period has been on the low point. I keep thinking it can't get worse. I fell asleep in the hospital room this afternoon and my parents said I was talking in my sleep and one thing they told me I said was, "I scoff at death." Yeah, that's my mantra.
@M00nDoll -
Yes, I have often wondered what will happen to my blog if I die. Who will notify everyone? Well I got that taken care of, now I just need someone to get rid of my porn and other bits of curiosity before they start cleaning out my place.
Hmmm zodiac sign? This always intrigues me because people always have an idea of what I should be but it never is my sign. So tell me, what do you think my sign is?
@UR_MUSE -
My favorite is the Misconception. I had to bring that one up for Thanksgiving. WKRP was such a great show.
That Was the Week That Was. (Remember TWWTW?) This has not been your good week. I'm worried and concerned about both you and your father. I hope to hear better reports in the next few days. Good luck.
I'm always so sorry to hear about your decreasing health. Whatever it is, I hope the doctors can name and treat it. I also hope the same for your dad. Though it may not be the best circumstances, try to have a Happy Thanksgiving. <3 SuZ
@curiousdwk -
That Was the Week That Was, was a little before my time. My dad talks of it. I actually saw something on BBC America about that show a couple years ago. It sounds like it was the precursor to shows like The Daily Show and The Colbert Report.
Thanks for the well wishes.
@VioletMoonDancer7 -
Thanks, it is interesting being alone for this holiday although it gives me time for reflection.
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